Monday Manjoyment!

Hello Kittens!! Happy Monday! It's SO weird, as I type this, it just doesn't FEEL like Monday. I'm still down in Austin as SXSW winds down.....and it has been a truly exhausting weekend. I'm kinda tired of saying how exhausting all this travel is, but it IS. I mean, right now I feel so drained, I feel that I could sleep straight for 10 days. No joke. I'm very much looking forward to some less insanity as far as my travel schedule is concerned. I think I may actually be home for 10 days or more!! WOOO!! Happy Dance. 

Anyway......

I also have to tell you that JUST THIS MORNING I got my camcorder charger which is why you've had to go so long without my vloggy-ramble-on-a-thons. I'm so sorry but don't worry, later on today and every day thereafter...you will be embraced by ME, live and in living color. ;-)

Oh wow, Shemar looks like he's had a bad day here. Not sure why, I mean but I'm more than happy to deal with all that pent-up anger and stifled aggression...? Can I help? 

Kelly, purge your unclean thoughts right now. 

So, yes, I am TIRED and ready to transition hopefully to a little bit more reasonable travel schedule. I think I'd lose my mind if I had to travel like this year round. It's just TOO much. I have no concept of what day it is or what city I'm in....and trying to coordinate my eating and my workouts....it's like a whole other level of madness. 

Just Breathe. 

;-)

I have to thank you all for the great comments and emails about my whole "inner transformation" thing going on. I really have to say that some of these books I've read in the past 2 months, they've just struck a chord and given me clarity, the clarity to see myself and my life in a whole new light. I can SEE how the past 2 years I have been simply running myself ragged.....trying to deal with being unemployed for over 14 months just after dealing with a really intense divorce situation that was incredibly costly and emotionally devastating. Then, when I started working again, I've been just going 200MPH trying to play catchup financially, trying to get ahead in my career to be the absolute best I can be, all the while getting MORE tired, MORE stressed and spending far LESS time taking care of ME. I've been putting all of my energies into work work work and trying to KILL IT and achieve some very vague big hairy goal, and I've totally neglected me in the process. And, to add to that, during these 2 years, I of course have also been trying to do the same thing with my HEALTH. I've spent SO MUCH time freaking out about my body changing and my metabolism being so jacked, that I didn't even notice how much more I was contributing to that problem by adding a mountain of stress and anxiety to it all. I constantly changed my workout plans and diet plans in hopes of finding some "magic" solution that would turn back the clock and help me essentially get my old body back, my old metabolism back.

Guess what? That's not really possible. 

I have to deal with who I am NOW. I have to accept where I am NOW, how my body works NOW. I have to -- as I've shared here recently-- stop the PANIC MODE. Stop punishing myself daily. Stop comparing myself to others. Stop mentally abusing myself daily. I have to start liking myself, appreciating myself, and trusting myself. I have to stop looking in the rear view mirror and worrying about the WHY's of the past. The past is OVER. Today is HERE. Tomorrow is up to me. 

The books I've read have so opened my mind and I'm changing, I can't tell you how much of a relief it is to know that this is the right path. I know that by finally slowing down and accepting myself and maybe understanding myself a bit more, I can really make some good changes on a permanent basis. 

I don't want to keep pushing down or pushing aside my feelings and just trying to find a bandaid fix for them. It's time fo face them and understand why I've let fear and insecurity get in my way in the past. I'm sooo looking forward to enjoying the great things about life along the way, the things that I've been missing--- time with my friends, with my family and growing this business of mine about which I am so passionate.....that's a blessing. And I can't WAIT!!!! 

So......all that to say, thanks to all of you that have shared you are going through a lot of the same thing or that you recognize a lot of the same habits in your life that you want to change. That makes me feel good about sharing my inner transformation with you along the way. Because I know it is helping me and I'm learning from people that have been there and changed THEIR LIVES in similar ways....so I can only hope that maybe my story can help others. All cool. 

Now THIS is NOT cool. THIS is HOT. WHAT?  

This man is impossibly gorgeous. Impossibly. 

Speaking of gorgeous men, here is my friend Bonnie's hubby Steve Pfiester KICKING BUTT - if y'all like the great circuit blasts and HIIT style training that Ms. Hottie from Body Rock offers, check Steve's boot camp and other blasts out and subscribe on YouTube. I am now fo sho gonna be including these in my rotations. Awesomeness:

QUESTION OF THE DAY: Do you prefer to workout inside, in a gym (or a home gym) or outside, in a park or near the beach?