Seriously? I really don't need to post much other than this. Please know that right now I have deeply disturbing sinful unclean thoughts. I will pray about that later. 

*Ahem*

What's UP!!! Did you have a great weekend? I did, and it ended yesterday with 90 minutes of HOT YOGA and OMG I am so excited that I went for myriad reasons. It felt GREAT (I have serious DOMS today all over) and.....I had a mini-consulation with YOGA MAN about my shoulder and WHOA he totally got it. Totally figured out what it is. I'll vlog about it tomorrow but suffice it to say that I am going to be seeing him for some fixing of my body. 

I've decided this year that I'm finally ready to date again and I think it should be The Rock. Really. I mean REALLY. He is so #barkworthy. Seriously- look at this:

If I saw this by the pool I would so offer to serve him water from my mouth out of a straw ALL DAY LONG like it's my JOB. I mean, I would offer to put Hershey's syrup and Whipped Cream suntan oil on his back if he needed it. I would give him swimming lessons and read Sports Illustrated to him all day.

I got this. 

And then we'd go workout.

UNCLEAN THOUGHTS.

Ok. I must go make dinner. Lately I have been super addicted to roasted vegetables on top of a salad with hummus as my dressing and then Tilapia or a protein shake a la GNC AMP 60 on the side. And yes, I'm taking my vitamins every day. Like it's my job. 

Question of the Day: Who do you think I should date this year? The Rock? 50 Cent? Huge Jackman? Dr. Drew? 

I've definitely put this title on a blog post before. It's definitely true, for me and for anyone really. In the past two days, I have experienced this colossal A-HA moment that is finally pushing off (oh dear, watch out, huge analogy and metaphor moments that sound like Oprah coming up) the CHAINS that have metaphorically HELD ME BACK. Oh wait, the CHAINS THAT I'VE PUT AROUND MYSELF without really realizing it, but the chains that have been a protection.....from success.

That sounds really stupid right? Like who would want to keep themselves from success? Makes no sense right? And success-- this could be in a job, in a relationship, in fitness. 

Perhaps right now you are humming this tune:

Sometimes, if you spend time paying attention to certain behaviors or habits in your life, you can see a pattern. You can see that you might be doing something, or not doing something-- and it makes NO sense, because doing that or not doing that certain thing-- is keeping you from what you want. So WHY do we do it?? Sometimes when you dig deep you find out that deep down inside it can be something like FEAR that is causing you to actually prevent yourself from kicking butt in fitness, or in leaving a bad relationship or quitting a job to start your own business. 

If you've been reading my blog for a while, you know that in 2011, I read some fantastic books that opened my eyes about myself and my behavior, past and present. I started seeing a therapist (ha, both physical and mental actually!) who has helped me see myself in a new light. And, I more than ever firmly believe in taking the time to figure yourself out. It can totally change your life. You think you know yourself?? You think you've got it all figured out? Maybe not so much. 

I had the idea for my company FitFluential for a WHILE. I knew I wanted it. I knew I could do it. I knew I hated my job. But I tried every path to get out of that job EXCEPT doing what was calling my name. I interviewed with some amazing companies and for whatever reason, things didn't work out. And every Sunday I was filled with absolute DREAD knowing I was still working at a job I hated. If you recall the end of 2010 I said I would not continue to be that person that just bitches about a job and doesn't do anything about it.....I started taking steps immediately in 2011. I did the research. I knew I should found this company and yet, it was like getting ready to bungee jump. I was all strapped in and staring DOWN at the abyss and SCARED. Scared of all the "what if"s that could happen or NOT happen. Scared of what people would say, scared of failing.......finally I realized that this PERFECT MOMENT where all my fears were calmed would NEVER HAPPEN. 

And I jumped.

I've shared this song by Madonna here before. In the album version, at the beginning of the song it says, "There's only so much you can learn in one place. The more that I wait, the more time that I waste". And that song was my mantra when getting ready to leave my job. I listened to it again and again. The words are PERFECT.

Guys and gals- deep down inside, I doubted myself about this company and I was worrying about what could happen on the bad side inside of thinking what would happen on the good side.

God has blessed my efforts BEYOND WHAT I EVER EVER EVER COULD HAVE IMAGINED.

And now suddenly, the past couple of days I had this HUGETASTIC moment of awareness about my FITNESS....like I've been wondering about myself- WHY WHY WHY, I quit my job and had more time at home to cook and workout and yet, what have I been doing?? Working MORE and working out less. Treating my body WORSE instead of better. You know what I figured out--- I won't go into excruciating detail but suffice it to say that I realized.....I've been sabotoging my efforts because of FEAR. Again. FEAR. Sometimes you have to dig deep to find out what is REALLY BEHIND your failures. And let me tell you when you figure that OUT, watch out because then you can really MOVE. It's as if-- metaphorically speaking-- you've been barricading yourself in a room with furniture all around you...you are looking outside at a great beach where you want to go but you keep adding chairs around you......until finally you realize why, even though you WANT TO BE ON THAT BEACH, you've been barricading yourself inside where there are no cabana boys. ;-)                                     

That's when you finally start to push the chairs out of your way. 

Finally. This is odd, because my therapist had been telling me this about myself but it didn't strike me as much until-- yes, I heard a conversation on a television show and I said OMG THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING. That's why I still keep waking up and working and working and working and NOT doing my workouts like I want to......oh heavens this blog could be 7 pages long today. Suffice it to say, I think everything just changed. What I figured out that finally pushed me to quit my job and start this company, now it's finally opened my eyes so I can get rid of the CHAIRS and get to the beach. 

Last night I had sushi dinner with one of my awesome BFFs and FitFluential Ambassadors, Electra hello check out HER BLOG.

She is amazing. And we are going to try to train together once a week WOOT! We talked about everything for like three hours it was AWESOME. So was the sushi of course.

Speaking of food, I meant to share this earlier this week. The folks at Subway* were kind enough to send me some gift cards to try out their new healthy subs. Hello. Subway has always had healthy subs and the ability to customize. My sister and I went and tried out some turkey subs on whole wheat with PEPPERS OMG my new addiction- hot peppers on a sandwich!! CHECK IT>

Anyway- like an idiot I deleted the pictures from my phone but I will tell you, Subway is a great option for eating healthy on the go. I've always shared with you that it's all about educating yourself to the choices and options out there. Get a sub with no cheese and no mayo and add things like peppers and mustard! You'll love the taste and most 6-inch subs have less than 300 calories. ;-) Not bad. If you'd like to try Subway and some of their new healthy subs, tell me in the comments below which one you'd try. And Subway will make your dreams come true. Well by that I mean someone will win some Subway gift cards! ;-)

*Disclosure: Subway did send me gift cards to go try some of the new sandwiches and they will provide the gift card to the commenter I mention. All opionions here are my own.

Now, I must go kick some serious A** today. How about you?? Plans???