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Hello Kittens!! Today's blog is titled Ghoulash because when I think of that dish, first of all, I shudder, because it reminds me of this dish my mom made (bless her heart, and she is a FABULOUS COOK but some of those casseroles in the day....whoa.) called "Mrs. Meir's Casserole". Lots of ground beef and like, stuff. Anyway, it's a metaphor for today being a whole bunch of STUFF.

The above picture is Shellie Blanks- daughter of Billy Blanks (TaeBo and yes it's from a 2nd marriage for those of you going HUH??). I'm sharing this picture for two reasons. A) I did a KICK BUTT kickboxing workout this morning and it FELT GREAT. Dang! This week I want to kick my OWN arse! Lame Kelly. LAME! Anyway, Sherry and I were texting about this earlier this morning, and I have had this discussion a lot recently. That is- quite often the 'body type' or physique we are aiming for or we aspire to become- is totally the opposite of what we are. And thus we are setting ourselves up for perpetual failure and disappointment. Then the self-loathing appears and it's all downhill from there. 

For me, I have straight hair. Always wanted curly hair- remember Cher in the big hair days? Or Mariah Carey in the early-I'm-not-a-hoochie-mama days? Yup. I'd love hair like that, so I spent oodles of cash on PERMS to destroy my hair into curliness. As my friend Mac would say, "Kelly, that dog ain't gonna hunt!"

Shellie's physique- very lean, no boobs, boy-hips and very defined muscle tone, THAT is my ideal. If I could go through a drive-through and order a body for myself, that would be it. HELLO. I am totally on the Kim Kardashian side of the hourglass ok? I've finally realized that this is how I am made. That hourglass figure is not gonna go away. Ever.  I have to stop trying to achieve the impossible. I have to learn to like what I am, and then strive to become the most healthy fit version of THAT. So, my goals are the same in many ways, but now I am not measuring my results against an unreasonable objective. 

I just said how great I feel after my kickboxing workout. And how crappy I feel that this week I didn't workout because I felt like a big bunch of BLEEEHHHHH all week. Whiny Kelly won. Sadness. Because, it's very true, I've said it before, when you are off the game, it's easy to keep going in that direction. Then you are that much further away from where you want to be. All it takes is one step back in the right direction- once you do it and start feeling SO PROUD AND SO GREAT to be back at it, you won't stop.

This is that time of year most everyone throws caution to the wind and says, MEH~ I'm gonna enjoy the holidays and start my diet January 1st. SCREW THAT. I'm going to enjoy the holidays but I'm looking at this first "chunk" of 30 days and I'm going to kick butt. I'm going to get back to 6 days a week workouts and 6 days a week of eating good. When that 30 days is over, I know I'll be leaner and stronger, who KNOWS how much of the fat loss goal I will have accomplished? I know it will be something and I will no longer beat myself up mentally for not reaching perfection in a month. Let's just KEEP GOING. KEEP GETTING BETTER. KEEP- NOT STOPPING.

You can do it. 

So can I. I challenge you to not wait.